today a lot of friends graduated.
it was supposed to be my graduating class...
* sigh *
the would-of's, the could-of's are haunting my day.
and sadness for the loss of close friends who are moving away...
no, I have not lost all hope...
but it's just another day of losses.
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there was a prayer said at today's graduation...
I don't remember
exactly what was said...
but there was this one part that spoke a lot to me...
about Christians "
serving those who have fallen " (or failed?).
Wow. I never hear people tall about that at church, or in Christian circles.
Do you??I just wish that they would stop tearing each other down
and start
truly encouraging them.
Showing them the same love, grace, and mercy that God has given them.
And, yes... I know that am the one that has fallen and failed.
And I need their encouragement - not distance. Not "tough love". Not criticism.
(though I know can take it - if that's what they keep giving.)
why do I keep wanting them to act like a
real family too?
to truly
be there for you.
to truly embrace you and include you...
loving you -while the world hurts or rejects you?
how is it that they think they are such "
Safe People "
or think that they only need to look for "
Safe People "?
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in about 1-3 months I can begin applying to go back to school again...
I am trying to find a school relatively local to do art education,
to later go on to do art therapy.
I guess.
Some days I can envision it.
Some days I can't.
Today's graduation perhaps made it harder to see it...
Perhaps because I felt
so surethat TFC was the place I needed to be,
and Cross Cultural Studies was the way to go.
And that ESOL was going to be my ministry.
I'm
not saying that God didn't do a greater work in me since I've been here...
But I do really, really want some clearly visible stepping stones placed in front of me,
that have God's stamp of approval on each one.
Comments (6)
Katie, you have been a true friend to me this year. I am really going to miss you. Thank you for being happy for my graduating college, even though I am leaving, and it hurts. I promise I'll visit!! Love ya. :)
My Lord God,I have no idea where I am going.I do not see the road ahead of me.I cannot know for certain where it will end.Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following you does not mean that I am actually doing so.But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and will never leave me to face my perils alone. -Thomas Merton (Thoughts in Solitude)
@kissafrogfindaprince - I'm upset that you haven't called to let me know you are home safe, booger butt!
Anyhow... I have a feeling that you might be sleeping in or visiting with friends. But I hope you are doing okay. Sorry we made you cry on Sunday too. ((hugs)) Love you! I'm proud of you... and you know if you need any "fixing" or mothering, you can call me any time day or night! ! ! 
@iHeartFriedOkra - This quote is really good. Thank you for sharing it with me. I hope you are doing good. Are you back in Georgia?
@Ezekiel36_33to36 - I am back in GA, and i'll be here for a while
@iHeartFriedOkra - I'm going to Gainesville today. Have my number? It's on facebook.
@Ezekiel36_33to36 - I do have your #...I'm working 12-6 today though, and then Church
is it a one day trip?